Much has happened since my last post. It's been quite the roller coaster ride. I graduated with my masters and started a doctoral program. My husband took over as pastor of Liberty Church in Alexandria, Louisiana. In December, we received a rather shocking potential diagnosis for Emery which was a huge test of faith. We had to wait an entire month before seeing a neurosurgeon in Baton Rouge. God was constant and faithful, as He always will be, and we received an excellent report. Our little Em, who just begun scooting on her bottom at a year old is now running after her sister. Glory to God.
It's strange how it is easy to be self-focused when I am busy. But I feel Him working in me. God is full of grace because I surely do not deserve to be changed for His glory. I'm trying a new way of living. I want to live small. Odd, I know. I am so tempted to promote myself and gain more notoriety and money. I hate even admitting it...especially on the world wide web. I want my thoughts and the intentions of my heart to be pure and full of love for Jesus, not me.
I'm disgusted at the number of times I look in the mirror and check social networking sites--neither of which are bad--but I do not want to be addicted to myself. I want my heart to be after Jesus. Non-believers who run across this page on the internet will scoff at my words. That's okay. I want to live simply and small.
Small is greatest in the kingdom of God. The little lady that prayed for missionaries without anyone knowing about it will receive just as great, or greater of a reward than people like Billy Graham or Chris Tomlin. What is done is secret will be revealed. I personally think the more glory we receive here on Earth, the lesser reward we receive in heaven.
Be my sufficiency
Be all that I am
More than enough
I have and abound
Though I may be hungry
I may be full
You are my portion
My true reward
Be my sufficiency
Be all that I am
In sorrow and joy
You'll hold my hand
In trials and temptations
You'll lead me through
Jesus, My Friend, I trust in You
Love it! Thank you for your encouraging words! Would love to read more soon: ) Miss ya!
ReplyDeleteI have so enjoyed reading this and your previous blog entries! Cried a few tears and had a few chuckles because this mama can relate. Thank you for your vulnerability. I needed that this morning!
ReplyDeleteenjoyed! Your an amazing woman. :)
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